Hey kiddos!
I had such big plans for August. During my scant weeks between school sessions, I had hoped to knock out a couple music videos, get a bunch of overdue adulting done, practice a live set, and pull multi-tracks for possible remixing.
There was some success in about half of one of the music video shoots I had on the books, but the rest ended up being failed experiments that need rethinking. If I hadn't just spent the last several years practicing video craft, I would probably write it off and say the failed experiments were fine and use them anyway--but I have, and so I am holding my work to a higher caliber. This is one of the downfalls of being a jack of many trades--perfectionism can become a paralytic.
I did get some of my intended adulting done, but a lot of external adulting catastrophes also landed on my head and energetically incapacitated me for the rest of the week. This caused me to get less done, which deepened my depression, which caused me to get less done... Anyone who's struggled with mental health likely knows how that cycle goes.
One of the only things I've really felt inspired to do is work on my novel. Yes, if you didn't know already, I am also a writer; back in 2017 I had this science fiction thing I'd written called DREAM STATE and I turned it into a really fun audio drama for about 5 episodes before it imploded under the weight of Life. I've been working on this novel now for about a year and I was stuck at about 40k words for most of that year, but I've refocused, found a new way forward, and am loving where it's going now. Not really much news to share there--45k in now and the story is really just getting going, so I have plenty more to write. But, it's certainly occupying a lot of my creative energy right now. Which is frustrating, because I have RUST_VISION shit to get done.
But the video fails have certainly done a lot to discourage working on other RUST_VISION stuff. I intend to change that this week through sheer force of will. We'll see how well that works.
Wish me luck.
Love,
ЯV